compulsory and push back

So seriously, the 1000 days thing tripped me up.
What started as my sincere desire to move from passive observer into active creator took a small twist and started looking like my list of 'have tos'.
uh oh.
The small girl child inside quickly folds her arms over her chest and says "you can't make me".
Ah common honey, you WANT to do these things. These are things that bring you JOY and HEALTH and MONEY.
"I don't want to."
Sure you do...you LOVE writing. you LOVE playing piano. you LOVE affirming your prosperity and divinity...
ARGGG...
somebody help me with this child!!
(I don't know how my Mother did it)
I'm driving to the cemetery to see her today. Maybe she'll have some ideas.